Dairy Of A Broken Heart

zoom~~~ there she goes again. came back from revison week last week, and exam week this week. and im trying so hard to going around canteen, school areas, library. so that i can see her one eye~ but i nvr met her at all.. cause i know she been da pao back to room makan, study in room. and hide inside room all the time. lifeless.. just to avoid me? need to be like this anot? sigh. anyway, enjoy ur holiday. as i aint looking forward for the holiday. cause im totally broke. =) wee~ 2 down 4 to go~ ya i mean exam. and i dunno why this finals i too darn relax. i can dun touch book whole day and touch only at the morning, just like yest and today.. well, guess i better prepare a coffin for me when my result come out. but.. isit possible? as i been called god by every1. i know they're just being sacarstic. for being last min to study and my result come out that stil is better than others which study their gut out. well, guess im borned smart. damn hao nian right? hahaha.. but no more play...

"is hard, to dreamt about u, think about u everynite and enjoying those sweet moment in the dream.. and waking up knowing that all of u is not with me anymore. and shed a tear everytime i do so." been a week since i update my blog, cause i just dun have the mood to do so, emotional sickness, exams, revison, and financial prob all got me tight up this week, fuck up right? sigh.. anyway i just have to go thru it alone, unlike last time where i always has some1 by my side no matter what happen. bought a speaker in pc fair which makes me almost completely out of cash this week and im stil in dept! fuck up.. and exam along! guess i will have to find my own way to go through this week. chao.. and sorry for reading this post which is all just about whinning.

"do u know? that.. i hate to see some1 i love with somebody, but i surely hate it more when i see some1 i love unhappy with me. hope u'll find me when u get back to coll.. " okay~ im officially pokai! and aint gonna have money to spend on my sem break anymore~ argh!! =( last last last min plan to movida on thurs nite with yuki and jayson and his fren.. is a newly opened pub which looks like a club more in the inside. so, i think i ended up clubbing instead of go drinking. xD haha.. fri, after reaching home, went to low yat with joseph, and hang whole day and the next day with him cause i overnite his hse. after that, another last sec plan to genting jz to yam cha... haha. i remember when i last time came to here, is with my baby girl.. to be exact, ex-baby girl.. 1st time sleeping with her, have fun, eating the romantic dinner after i make her angry and ended up buying a nike bag to tam her back. den she giving me tat long face telling me she hvt eat and den we went and m...

had my dinner today.. with her.. so called 'dinner' which last 2 min after i reach there. hah. seriously? i'm wondering, am i so fugly that till i can scare her away? am i fucking annoying? am i bloody thick skinned face? am i being wrong, trying to create chance for us? am i being fucking wrong to love this girl?! seriously. i wonder. so much for ex-anniversary today which turn out like i expected it would turn out. i got nothing to say. for me, is fucking hurt when ur ex do till so fucking obvious to do everything to avoid u. can't we just be fren? cant we just had a simple peaceful dinner? at least that's what i ask'd for.

watched 'clash of the titans' on thurs nite and 'it's complicated' yest.. comment? well, clash of the titans was a dissapointment i must say.. nice trailer nice graphic but the story line suck.. and i hate what zeus is wearing that armor. LOL.. its complicated, well... like the title says. it's complicated..... hahaha.. just like me and her.. is a very funny show though.. laugh till my thraot get sored in the cinema. >.

idk why m i posting this either. =.=" guess, im just so fuck up with my reality, so i just wish to create an own dream place of mine through words. Sigh, is been 8 months without her d. can u imagine that? 8 months? and there's still no turning point in our relationship. will this nightmare really continue? until the day when i wake up, and receive a wedding invitation from her, only i will realise that is the reality? i really don't know why she wouldn't even try.. hmm... am i really that sucks to be some1 else mr.right? or im just mr.not right after all?? argh!! so fed up, when i think of us used to be one, we go everywhere together, eat together, sleep together, and whatever also, there's me and you. but now? is just reality. hmm.. u wont know how much i would give up, just to have those days again. i miss it when i used to put my hand on the passenger seat when im driving, holding her hand, and i still got that pratice till now, but.. what im holding is just th...

"I wanna know what turns you on So I can be all that and more I'd like to know what makes you cry So I can be the one who always makes you smile Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no And he never took the time to make it work (You deserve more loving, girl) Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh Anyway that I can please you let me learn So I wanna know Tell me what I gotta do to please you Baby anything you say I'll do Cause I only wanna make you happy From the bottom of my heart, it's true I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh So I wanna know" I wanna know, JOE seriously, i wanna know... ur hidden feeling. eventhough u might always think im the the right wan, but i already found my mrs.right in my life. but as they say, forcing won'...