As what the title said, this will be the last time i posting in this blog. Reason? I'm all over sad and heartbroken life from the past as i'd already found a future who i can live with. I might not understand her well and good enough to provide her the happiness, i know that she's trying hard to suppress her 'whatsoever bad things' to please me sometimes. cause she promise not to hurt me like how my pasts hurt me. Doing things that offending to her parents, being at the best she can so i will love her more. Extreme diet plan to slim down so she can look as hot as she can when i bring her out and make me feel proud. How silly of her. Doesn't she know that all i ever want is some one who can love me for the rest of my life? i doesn't need her to be hot, or whatever. Just love me, and i' promise i will love you back. :) I LOVE YOU
It's hard to love someone without getting loved back the same way. hmm.. like i said. It's hard. dunno how long my weak heart can tahan. Everytime is just hot and cold. How to love you fully when you don't even open up your heart and let love in? Care you, den let you say i cheong hei. fine. won't CARE anymore. still. You're the one i think of before going to bed, heart feeling uncomfortable and insomnia everytime until i know you're home safe. couldn't deny there's a part in me that's very protective. Always say u can take care yourself, always meeting out with stranger, but didn't u know that there's a lot of bad guy that will take advantage of you just like that? they can make you drunk, or they can even put drug inside your cup and make u knock off? U didn't know cause maybe u never experience before. how easy it is to get my hand on drug and drug some random lady and take them home if i want to. Sigh, suan le ba. who am i to be ta...
The broken heart start to beat again on Oct 15th, The day when it all start, how i get drunk cause is my Happy Fucking birthday, and how you get drunk cause is your heartbroken day. till the moments, where we start hanging out, drinking, chilling, traveling around, having some sleepover from time to time. It make me feel comfortable, and then i realize that i was in love all over again. Though, knowing that you're not that kind of girl that will stick around by myside, yet i still been trying hard and not giving up until i manage to get your heart. And it was a long run.. and it kills me day by day knowing that you're not home, outside drinking with some else random guy. Jealousy does kill when you care so much about that person. Really make me feel like giving up, slowly you're straying away. and so do i. I don't know whats real or whats fake anymore. So, i decided to stop this foolishness of me. No point strangling myself knowing that I ain't the one that gonna ma...
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