I love you, still.

Here we go again. in a blink of an eye, time flies and its end of the month. and its been 2 years.

Don't even know why am i still blogging for. lol. but at least i can tell what i wanted to tell without any1 knowing it. heh, hopefully no1 is reading this.

Oh well, yea.. eventhough i don't wanna admit it. but i know the fuck-up side of me is missing her damn much. after she left, there's this big hole inside of me, which i tried so many ways to cover it back up but, after time goes and effort put into action. nothing much changes, except the distance. Been wondering to myself lately, what if that day i dint make that mistake? Life would goes like this :- finish work, find gf chill

- weekend and feeling hype? take off on fri and drive down to some beach side or wherever just you and me, 3 days 2 nights break.

- feeling down in the night? just a phone call and u'll be beside me hugging me through the night.

- after salary payroll, bring you to shopping and buy u something i couldnt afford den budget for the whole month which i really feel worth cause at least thats what i can do to pamper u.

- fri night and feeling wild? heh, bet u'll be on ur hottest dress and me in my handsome suit and we can hit the club or find some really chillex place to get drunk.

Used to imagine life with you in the future when you was with me, but even after u left, sometimes i still imagining life would be like if you were still around. and baby, i really wish u to know how much i still miss and love you after all these years. :'( and i would give up everything in this world to have u back with me. seriously, i fucking miss my lil brown bear.

P/s i love you.

tired of being alone.

Like i said, im tired of being alone. it may sound crazily fun to be single, but its actually quite lonely.

Eg. 1) no1 to say goodmorning goodnight, or to wake some1 up in the morning or talk some1 else to bed.

2) phone doesn't ring often, and how much u wishing it to ring or even to ring some1 for reason or no reasons.

3) hard to find some1 to by urside when u really need somebody. im so fed up of finding people to company me go shopping that i'll just have to do it by myself. YES, alone.

4) time to time, how much i wishes i could use all my salary to buy something for that someone that worth it, just to see her smile at least. =)

5) stilll a lot more reason why im tired of being alone. FML, im in the #foreveralone list. =(

p/s. how much i wish u were here and doesnt hate me. imylbb..