Things to wonder?

Today, she asked me. What will change in her life if she got a bf now.
Well, I answer her these few.
1st . U will lose some of your freedom but gain more love in exchange
2nd. U won't be going out drinking like is no tmr unless ur bf is same or worst drinker than u
3rd. U will have more emo days and happy days. Cause of arguement , fights, jealousy and how the ways he tam u back
4th. U'll get fatter no doubt 😁
5th. Lesser pig dog friends and flies around u
6th. U'll get engage and marry soon if ngam key.
7th. U'll break a lot of guys heart un intentionally
And lastly, I won't be bugging u and finding u often edi.

Though, what i really want it to be and tell her is
1st. I'll give u all the love in this world as long as your heart loses it freedom and stay with mine.
2nd. Definitily will be drinking together until we grow old. XD
3rd. The same as above but I'll be the one that think of every single trick to tam u until u'll forgive me. ;)
4th. I'll cook good food for u every morning when u wake up and dinner served when u're back from work.
5th. Lesser pig dog friend around us. As i'll prove myself worthy enough to take care and love u until the last breathe of air I breathe in.
6th. I wanna marry you an grow old with u someday . :)
7th. you'll break my heart if the one I mention that do all those things with u wasn't me.
8th. I'll really leave u alone if your heart wasn't with mine. But you'll always be something else in my heart. Cause dumbass, i really fall for u but I didn't know u're blind enough to not notice it or what. Even though I know I'm not good enough for u. And what I have Now isn't as good as what your other options have. But give me some times cause I ain't playing horse in this matter anymore. Really hope to earn enough money to open a wedding studio and u can manage the sales while me , refine my photography skill and become the photographer . X) simple yet happy life.

But what I only can do now, :) heh, is like how I'm treating u now. Maybe rough on the surface but just want to let u know I'm all soft inside and what i want u to be is happy and safe.

P.S 玩暗恋真辛苦。

love game

Eventhough i know you're not that type of girl that will be sticking around talking about forever. but i just couldn't give myself a reason to give up. :( feels as if its the game i used to play, but right now, instead of me playing it, u had me playing in your's. sighh,... what to do what to do. jealousy kill me T_T couldn't stand it. isn't it that hard just to find someone to love and be loved?