It's hard

It's hard to love someone without getting loved back the same way. hmm.. like i said. It's hard. dunno how long my weak heart can tahan. Everytime is just hot and cold. How to love you fully when you don't even open up your heart and let love in? Care you, den let you say i cheong hei. fine. won't CARE anymore. still. You're the one i think of before going to bed, heart feeling uncomfortable and insomnia everytime until i know you're home safe. couldn't deny there's a part in me that's very protective. Always say u can take care yourself, always meeting out with stranger, but didn't u know that there's a lot of bad guy that will take advantage of you just like that? they can make you drunk, or they can even put drug inside your cup and make u knock off? U didn't know cause maybe u never experience before. how easy it is to get my hand on drug and drug some random lady and take them home if i want to. Sigh, suan le ba. who am i to be taking care of you till this extent of level. i Couldn't even take care of myself.

You'll never know how it feels till it hurt.

Stucking around by your side whenever you need me. Disappear from your sight whenever i'm not needed. not being some1 special eventhough i tried hard. but it's okay. :) love is not something you give out and expect to receive something else back. i well known myself is not prepare for you. i'd got no aim in life, i'm currently jobless, well. not rich, and spirit all broken down like a piece of shit at home only. failed my exams, which suppose to be my last light to life. hmm... feel i couldn't acoomplished anything in life. i feel so useless. :'( and i couldn't do a shit to help it.