In your mind

Had a very very bad nightmare yest morning when i was sleeping in the car after a bit of arguement with you. hmm... didn't expect those words will hurt me that badly till a tear shed. sigh. still a torn in my heart. sometimes, i really really don't know what the fuck im doing. seeing things i shoudn't be seeing, knowing things i shouldn't be knowing, hurting myself without a valid reason.. loving some1 who doesn't seems to gaf. You didn't know how much u meant to me, when i say i love you. i wasn't flirting and i ain't lying. is a very strong term to use. and i'm not afrad of telling it to the whole world. but you're screwing me for things i said from my sincere heart and acting as if it doesn't matter. then acting as if im alright. sometimes hot, sometimes cold. i really don't know what you're thinking. having a crush on some1 that didnt give a fuck about you, and neglected that some1 who will give up the world for u. seriously? acting as if i'm alright though my heart is hurting . i ain't superhuman. :'( no matter how strong my feeling, how metal hard is my heart. feeling will still fade, and metal will still corrode. not appreciating everything infront and regreting it someday after knowing who seriously love you? maybe? maybe not. Everything about you remain a question mark to me.