Dairy Of A Broken Heart

hoho! conquer mount. Angsi for the 3rd time d. no more challenge. =/ anyway, went for the climb again on monday cause my bud, chun hien and wai hoh here nvr hike b4. so, me, jl, kel, and sean company them for another hike. it was fun as usual. this time we went on super fast speed, started 11am and reached the summit at 2.15pm. rested up for 45 min and down down here we go. stopped by the stream for a drink, and wtf are they thinking to walk down stream. but tak sampai 50meter already patah balik cause current too strong and the rocks are hurting our bare foot. Then, we stopped by half way for a bath at the stream. well, they bath lar. i take pict ny. haha. by 6pm we're already down hill and off to seremban for steamboat. tired like hell but stil went for work the second day. finishing my internship d. tmr last day interview, but im so lost. sigh. dun know wanna do well or sucks in the interview. cause if i do good, i might become permanent but cfm56. i'd nvr touched that engin...

i wonder from time to time, 'wtf am i doing in this aviation industry anyway? arent gonna be any future for us chinese in aviation. as MAS(the only company who provide type rated license course in Malaysia) [which is what u need to earn big $ in aviation] are more likey to send their own 'race' to it only. Sigh. I got my aim i got my dream, my aim? earn at least 10k by age of 30. my dream? being happy with my love's one. no matter what i do. But can i really make those aim and dream come true with the current dilemma and in this tough industry? hmmm.. why am i in aviation at the first place anyway? to Think back, i wasnt a guy that know anything about aircraft, or traveling or whatever thing about aircraft. i dun even know how's a Boeing 737 look like anyway even until i finish my course. (perhaps that may show u my 'intrest' in aviation). But why do i choose this field back then? Hmm.. started back when there's this one special fella, that always tell m...

have you ever wonder, if u ever given 3 wishes by a genie, or maybe a time capsule to travel back to the past for few days or maybe more? what will u do? for me, i'll wish for the world not ending so soon yet(if it were to happen soon due to the mother nature rampage recently) 2nd, i'll wish for every1 to get healthy or maybe wish a couple of billions to spend? thirdly, maybe send me back 2 yrs ago? time flies, and everything seems to fade, but i wish something aren't. maybe there's something that lasts longer than it seems? well, i hope so though. !@#$ *slap slap* back to reality jeremy. back to reality.

Lately there's been a lot going through my mind, the past, the present and the future. sigh. wanna go for a vacation also hard. guy friends tak boleh pakai, girl friends also tak boleh pakai, even last time when i still have my love one also always tak jadi. how much i wish, there's some1 always here for me. fuck it lar. Time flies and is been 5 month since i start my training. now going on the last month. 2 permanent vacant opened and 4 contract(hopefully) and there's 10 of us. some1 got to go. hopefully it wont be me. wanna try to get permanent, but if i get it. i will be attach to CFM56 section and i dun like it there as im attached to PW4000 section since 1st day. and the people around there arent friendly also. sigh. idk lar, hopefully i get a job and earn 2-3k per month and get my own credit card(for display only) =) Financial freedom here i come. =D .. .. too bad there's no1 until now i find worth spending all my $$ on.