Dairy Of A Broken Heart

"... And I'll be begging you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting With my Heart on my sleeve Oh, for the next time we'll be here Seems like a million years And I think I'm dying What do I have to do to make you see he can't love you like me? Why don't you stay I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of being lonely Don't I give you what you need When he calls you to go There is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way Baby, why don't you stay .....It's too much pain to have to bear To love a girl you have to share" Stay, Sugarland Stay with me, dun walk any further away anymore, even as fren will statisfy my heart.

"dunno whats wrong with me again. emotional heart pain sickness is back. cause? i miss her.. yea. no doubt, after all the fake mindset shit etc i tried to lied to myself, but heart cant lie.. it telling me tat i miss her everyday.. is dis the life i have to live without u? hmm.. pls text me if u ever think of me. at least a reply. " Went to opera again yest nite.. yaya. i kn0. it suck. and y would i go again for 2nd time? cause i accidently promise jun leong d. == what to do. jz wanna get some drink and get loose from myself, wai hoh bring his chick.. wiu wit.. kary.. leng lui. xD proud of him, and jl bring his chick also. well, not his la of cz, but his crush that he did some fking embarassing thing on her.. that i stil feel like laughing until now.! hahaha!! he tak boleh minum summo wanna bottom up so many times with me, ended up as drunk cat and do some fk stuff. every1 seems to got their pair, or even more.. me? im jz drinking there alone in the table. =( drank a lot! but...

"Everybody see's it's you I'm the one that lost the view Everybody says we're through I hope you haven't said it too So where Do we go from here With all this fear in our eyes And where Can love take us now We've been so far down We can still touch the sky If we crawl Till we can walk again Then we'll run Until we're strong enough to jump Then we'll fly Until there is no end So lets crawl, crawl, crawl Back to love, Yeah" Crawl, Chris brown Would i get a chance to start crawl? everythings start from beginning, i dont wish to fly in a sudden, so jz let me a chance. to crawl. like a tortoise mayb? =) Where do i start? ok. i jz got awoke by nightmare, cant sleep back, thats y im blogging here. >. .

"Everybodys got something they had to leave behind, One regret from yesterday that seems to grow with time, Theres no use lookin back or wondering, How it could been now or might have been, all this i know , but still i cant find ways to let u know, I never had a dream come true, Til the day that i found you, Even though i pretend that i've moved on youll allways be my baby, i never found the words to say, Your the one i think about each day, And i know no matter where life takes me to a part of me will allways be with you Somewhere in my memory ive lost a sense of time And tomorrow could never be cause yesterday is all that fills my mind..... " Never had a dream come true, S club 7 =D days as usual.. coll is relax as ever and helping mum is busy as ever... something really bad happened, but u dun wanna say it in here.. hmm.... dint really got time to blog, really tired after work.. but i dun sleep.. i watch movie, and look like a fking zombie on the day.. == really have...

"If u just realize what i just realize, the we'd be perfect for each other, and we'll never find another, Just realize what i just realize, We never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now." realize, Colbie caillat But in the end u never manage to realize it. U just left with a silent walk and me, a broken heart behind. Helped joseph drive his CRV yest, wah.. i 1st time drive so exp car. shiock. but no power. hahaha.. went to ampang lookout point later on night after i finsh working. SAID, i rmbr the raod!! but ended up, we' get lost.. == even i jz been der monday. Finally found our way up there and it was late d, klcc light close 10min later, but i stil manage to snap some pic(upload later, very lazy now) and we sisha there lepak.. wah.. shiock lar the shisha there. damn smooth and flavour very lasting and strong. i nth much happen today, jz like usual sat night, pool-> home-> bath->fb->blog=> one piece. night all..

1st of all.. i would like u all to know. that me IS HAVING MY WORST ROOM EVER!!! damn! i expected too much for an apartment! T.T full with dead cockroaches.. stinky living room, bath room which rosak and toilet bowl *vomited* duwan to mention it.. and dead cockroaches in the bathroom, i dun even dare to pee in tat toilet. and all over the behind the cupboard in my room.. T.T i wanna cry out loud when i 1st see the room.. i shld see the room b4 i decided to move in. anyway.. im gonna move out next month for sure! who cares if i share with ppl, i jz wan a proper bedroom and toilet. tats what i ask for. :'( Back at home at wed night after dinner with my dear fren~ hehe.. y im back dis early? cause thurs is N9 public holiday and fri got no class~ =) tat's why im back early to help mama do cookies for cny~ time no enuf, worker not enuf, a good son must do what a good son must do. :D hope dis year ang pau is big enuf lar though.. hhahaha.. gtg for now.. nite every1! p/s i miss u C.A...

"Human, People, machine, all are made for a reason, that's R.E.P.A.I.R. If u put it In Somehow, someway, or someBullSHit Theory. It really does makes sense. Engineer are trained to repair machines. HairStylist is to repair messed up hairs. Accountant is to repair ur CoverUp Accounts to cheat IncomeTax. Businessman is to repair The business network of the company? Jenator or cleaner is to repair the untidyness of the places or areas. Teacher/lecturer is to repair the stupidness of our mind. Chef is to Repair the hunger of our stomach. Etc. But, can a broken heart and a shattered be repaired? i wonder...... " Bck to study again, went back coll yest nite. to clean my Old hse, cz its a rubbish hse. =) wonder will be get back our deposit if i handed over the hse the way it is. So, TerPaksaLah Clean up the rubbish all. Jz me and cheng VS the rubbish of the whole hse. except my room. Every room also got dusts, leftover, rubbish and all.. jz my room only! damn clean, dustless, ru...

O.P.E.R.A~!!! as i expected, dun expect too much. lol. boring as hell.. Small, n0 dance floor, and too bright for a club! anyway, yest nite was kk lar. Open 4 bottle, cause guy toll from 8 to 14 to 19.. so n0 choice have to open 4. but stil n0t enuf. >.> dai ka jie says is her last night, and i told her if it was her last, i will potong!! well, potong my negative habit, dun simply think. Really looking forward to see how long she can dun club. haha. and see how long i can dun drink n !@#$%^&*() Oh, i help jospehine met one of her primary fren as well. :D which is also my coll mate who is going to go MOS but ended up in opera as well. Fin, i gotta say u are a better drinker than jenn =X Open light at 3, walk all the way back to sunway lagoon car park, mamak. and back at coll at 5.30.. and yes, i did it. i Xcross yi ka jie line, and make her piss off me. for dangerous road driving. == sorry again. After dropping all of them off the coll.. i have to walk drunktard ass all the wa...

Finally... back to coll.. and finally.. im free to blog! very bz these 2 days.. as i dun havent find my room yet.. temporary have to stay with wei lun, my 10years fren! but he's an asshole.. == really cant tahan. i need my own room fast. dun let me duplicate key summo! summo sleep early! i have to off my laptop light to the dimest and listen to his mandarin crap playlist. haha. at least better than no room,, jz tahan a month den hopefully and pray tat i got my own room by next. okay.. tues. very bz day. back to coll at 1pm den have to line up and reg until 4pm only done! den have to move all my crap stuff to jenn's hse to put 1st. den night time... uhmmm... busy with something tat i forgotten d.. today? class.. til 3. den frisbee and hip hop! yay.. i finally brave enuf to risk myself learning. =,= fast learner.. already get used to the basics.. frog stance?, hindi step?, and dunno what kick step. stil dun get use to the name yet. hopefully i can move on to more advance stage fa...

Is hard to believe that my mother would let me out for a trip in new yr eve. >. Got a room, bath and meet up with yuki and william. Then dinner at food court and countdown at jonkerstreet. eventhought there's a nicer countdown in dataran pahlawan. but all of us are too KO to walk anymore. =( after that, back to hotel with beersssssssssss... and drink drink drink and did what we did best on a trip! gamble!! haha.. next morning. went for breakfast/lunch at jonkerstreet and a walk in dataran pahlawan, after tat cendol den back d. sound boring huh? but there's nothing better than hanging out with friend! =) Sleep at 9pm at shop, and wake at 4am. telling myself. 'wtf? they never wake me. =.=" den go back to sleep and wake at 12pm by my MOTHER! ish.. would go from 15 hr to 17 hr wan if she dun wake me. now holiday is coming to end, new sem is ready for me. 1st problem i have even b4 my class start, is to get myself a room in 3 days. =.= aaron last min changing coll, den c...