Feeling Emo. Again.

idk why m i posting this either. =.=" guess, im just so fuck up with my reality, so i just wish to create an own dream place of mine through words.

Sigh, is been 8 months without her d. can u imagine that? 8 months? and there's still no turning point in our relationship. will this nightmare really continue? until the day when i wake up, and receive a wedding invitation from her, only i will realise that is the reality? i really don't know why she wouldn't even try.. hmm... am i really that sucks to be some1 else mr.right? or im just mr.not right after all?? argh!!

so fed up, when i think of us used to be one, we go everywhere together, eat together, sleep together, and whatever also, there's me and you. but now? is just reality. hmm.. u wont know how much i would give up, just to have those days again. i miss it when i used to put my hand on the passenger seat when im driving, holding her hand, and i still got that pratice till now, but.. what im holding is just the empty seat, and holding a feel of regret, guilt, and sorry. really hope next semester, we can TRY to get along. at least. since is my last already. then after that.. i dun think we will have any chances of living out our college life already. miss you lil brown.. pls come back.